Thank you...baby..

When it comes to dealing with my disappointment or my sadness, I am totally worst case. For me is easier to just run away from my despair. It took me quite sometime to write this, but I know I would feel better after I wrote this down.

I just lost my baby recently, I don't want to remember when it is exactly. I was pregnant for 2, 5 months and I started to bleed heavily. My doctor advise me to abort it because the baby is not developing as it should be. Of course I know its for the best, but to get thru this new reality is undescribe-able. It's like all of a sudden something had been taken away.

For my baby, although you lived in my womb for only 2 months, I will remember you forever. I will remember the funny fuzzy feeling in my womb on those days, I will remember how happy we are with the news of your presence, I will remember how ur big brother Omar read a story for you every night before his bedtimes..most of all I will remember and love you as my baby..always.

I believe a person or people..no mater how quickly they had existed in my life, they had become a part of me. No matter how short time their presence colored my life, they left marks in my heart.I may never had a chance to say this to my baby, but I really want to say it out loud...for my baby, for my friend, best friends, girlfriends, boyfriends (ehm), everyone who had been coloring my life in the past..I only wanna say...Thank You for the memories..I will hold it dear in my heart..