C'est La Vie

Two days ago I promised my son we would go swimming on the afternoon. He's been begging me to swim for days. I told him to get his afternoon nap and after that we could go. When I said this the sky was bright with no sign of rain whatsoever. But when he woke up 2 hours later, the rain was pouring heavily.

He looked at me and asked, “Can we go swimming now mommy ?”. I took him outside the house and showed him the pouring rain. He peered at me and said, “ But can we still go swimming mommy ?” and then I said “I am afraid not baby”.

He begun to squeak and cry. I tried to give him some reason and said “ Sometime we don't always have what we want...sometime things don't go as we plan..that is just the way it is...that is life..”. My son refused to hear what I said, he cried louder. Hhh..how can I explain to this little man with his little brain that life is always full of surprises bad one and good one, how can I make him understand that life is like that..it has its own way to twist things by nature.

Right there and then I envy my son..for being able to cry like a baby..to be able to cry his heart out and let go all of his emotion. I hugged and rocked him back and forth to soothe his disappointment. But inside my heart I too felt like wanting to cry like a baby, but no sound choked out and no tears fell out.

I seldom cry. Even when I cry, it was only silent tears streaming down my cheeks although sometime I feel like cry my heart out, it just never happens. In my adult life I think that people are expected to be tough, people are expected to be strong for themselves and others and people are expected not to cry..let alone cry like a baby. Well what can you say about it..C'est la vie...